That's What's Up

So this is just a my life update on where I'm at right now mentally, physically, emotionally. I personally believe I need a change of scenery. I have thought of some options for myself, one of them by the end of the summer I will live at my dad's in Huntington Beach and go to a junior college out there. Also, plan to get a part time job while there hopefully. I have pretty much told everyone I possibly can about this but in case you still do not know, I did apply for a cruise line and I still hope to get that job but it could be up to 6 months until I hear from them. If I do get the job that would be life changing, I could be placed on any of their ships thousands of miles away from all of this. I have thought about interning at places, I just need to type up a legit resume, but it is also something I am not sure I want to pursue at least not at this time.

Technically, I guess you could say I am still unsure of what I want to do with my life. I do still plan on having my own venue, but I need a steady income job to save up so that I can quit working for the man and just run my venue, haha. I do not excel in any special skills and I am not talented at anything so it has been a struggle to find my niche. I might want to look into journalism, but possibly still be in the music business such as writing, reviewing, interviews,etc. Frankly, it gets very discouraging at times.

I recently lost a loved one this year so I am still dealing with those emotions from time to time. I also need to start taking better care of my body because that is draining me emotionally. I continue to dream constantly and I still wish that I did not dream at all it's also very draining and sometimes disturbing.

Just so this entry does not end on the downside, I have recently felt it necessary to say that I am blessed to know all of you. Throughout the years I have met some of the most amazing, diverse, inspiring, random, hilarious, caring, people and it is all mostly from going to shows and sharing common friends. I am thankful to know you and thank you for the memories thus far. Let's make s'more!

Ranting

Lately, there is more and more attention on young teenagers getting pregnant and it is truly irritating me. It started with Jamie Lynn Spears and her fiasco. After that it somehow made it okay to make a tv series out of the topic, Secret Life of an American Teenager. Now, MTV is going to have some documentary about the topic too.

It bothers me because I feel that all this is really doing is telling more and more kids it is okay to have sex at their age, just don't get pregnant. I am not saying it does not happen or that it should be ignored, but the networks are doing it for ratings and not to actually help them understand or learn anything. There are just certain ways you should go about situations and I do not like how this one is being handled. Increased pressure gets put on younger girls every day and that sickens me. I already feel like I need to have a "serious talk" with my little 13 year old sister, which ultimately blows my mind.

All this really comes down to is I hate the media and society.