That's What's Up

So this is just a my life update on where I'm at right now mentally, physically, emotionally. I personally believe I need a change of scenery. I have thought of some options for myself, one of them by the end of the summer I will live at my dad's in Huntington Beach and go to a junior college out there. Also, plan to get a part time job while there hopefully. I have pretty much told everyone I possibly can about this but in case you still do not know, I did apply for a cruise line and I still hope to get that job but it could be up to 6 months until I hear from them. If I do get the job that would be life changing, I could be placed on any of their ships thousands of miles away from all of this. I have thought about interning at places, I just need to type up a legit resume, but it is also something I am not sure I want to pursue at least not at this time.

Technically, I guess you could say I am still unsure of what I want to do with my life. I do still plan on having my own venue, but I need a steady income job to save up so that I can quit working for the man and just run my venue, haha. I do not excel in any special skills and I am not talented at anything so it has been a struggle to find my niche. I might want to look into journalism, but possibly still be in the music business such as writing, reviewing, interviews,etc. Frankly, it gets very discouraging at times.

I recently lost a loved one this year so I am still dealing with those emotions from time to time. I also need to start taking better care of my body because that is draining me emotionally. I continue to dream constantly and I still wish that I did not dream at all it's also very draining and sometimes disturbing.

Just so this entry does not end on the downside, I have recently felt it necessary to say that I am blessed to know all of you. Throughout the years I have met some of the most amazing, diverse, inspiring, random, hilarious, caring, people and it is all mostly from going to shows and sharing common friends. I am thankful to know you and thank you for the memories thus far. Let's make s'more!